Going Minimal Waste: Closet Clean Out

This weekend I did a full on ruthless closet clean out. I got rid of around 60% of my clothing, shoes, handbags and all of my belts. I have a problem with being attached to material items for small reasons, you could say I'm a bit of a hoarder. So getting rid of that much is a huge achievement for me (*gives self a pat on the back*). I decided this time I was going to try and sell some of the items so I sorted the items into piles, one pile for selling, one for donating (my god that was a large pile) and one for repurposing. I have already cut up a lot of old clothes for rags (the container is overflowing) and I have also sold one of my items and the clothes for donation are in the trunk ready to be donated to the salvos. If you're interested in any new/used clothing/shoes/bags you can have a look at the 30 items I listed on the app carousell and search the user aimeeelisha. Below are some picture I took of the piles.

The original pile.
To sell pile.
Donation pile.
Repurpose pile.
- Aimée

I'm Going Minimal Waste

The other night I couldn't sleep so I was watching some youtube videos and I came across the channel Seeker Stories. I started binge watching their videos and found a video about a village in Japan that produces "zero" waste which then lead me to a video about a young woman named Lauren Singer who's trash from the last 2 years fit inside a mason jar, she was explain the concept of zero waste which I found incredibly interesting and inspiring. I then stayed up until 5 am watching videos about living a zero waste lifestyle and finally fell asleep. The next morning I was reading zero waste blogs and watched her TED talk about her zero waste lifestyle, I decided then and there that I wanted to do what she is doing. Unfortunately I then realised that because of my health issues I can't really do what she's doing, I have medication packs that can't be recycled or reused and quite a few other things that I won't get into. Feeling defeated I gave up on that dream, two days later I realised maybe I can't live a zero waste lifestyle but I can minimise the waste I produce, I can't do exactly what she does but I can do something similar. So I went back into researching, I started making lists of the things I can and can't recycle and what I can, will not and cannot replace and then made a plan. From now on I will keep you up to date on my progress.

- Aimée

Chronic Illness Tag

1. What have you been diagnosed with?
Degenerative Disc Disease, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain Syndrome, Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Pyrrole Disorder, Anxiety, Depression & PTSD

2. What will you tend to do at night when you can't sleep?
Watch Youtube videos, listen to music while on Tumblr or Pinterest or Facebook or if I bring my laptop to bed with me watch some tv shows.

3. Worst experience/side effect of a medication?
My worst reaction to a medication was a medication I am actually on, Zoloft, when I was younger my dosage was upped to try and help with my panic attacks and it was a bit too much. I was manic, I was incredible energetic until I crashed, how I was acting was quite scary. I went up to 150mg of Zoloft, which is now my actual dose.

4. How has your condition impacted your mental health?
It has definitely made it worse, without my disabilities I probably wouldn't struggle with depression as much as I do.

5. Describe your social life.
Non existent.

6. What is the hardest thing to do when you are flaring?
Everything, but if I had to choose one it would be standing.

7. Do you have worries for the future?
Yes, doesn't everyone?

8. Favorite comfort food?
Thai food, specifically stir fry chicken with cashew nuts and sweet chilli and a large serving of rice.

9. Tell us a valuable lesson you have learned through being sick.
People take the simple things for granted, like walking the dog.

10. Name 3 things that you miss that were taken from your health limitations.
Being able to shop for 3 hours straight.

11. How old were you when you started noticing symptoms?
Anxiety: as long as I can remember.
Depression: as long as I can remember.
PTSD: 11 years old.
Pyrrole Disorder: as long as I can remember.
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome: 13 years old.
Chronic Pain Syndrome: 6 years old.
Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome: 16 years old.
Fibromyalgia: 12-13 years old.
Degenerative Disc Disease: ???

12. What is the biggest injustice about living with a chronic illness?
We are invisible, it's not just our illnesses that are. We are outcasts, even in conversations about intersectionality disabled people are left out, there are a few people (like Idris Elba) that recognise us but for the most part we might as well not exist.

13. What is the worst advice you have been given about your health?
Keep doing "normal things" (e.g. go back to school), people don't seem to understand the limits that are imposed onto me because of my illnesses so they recommend being as "normal" as possible and it just isn't possible.

14. What items, related to illness, could you not cope without?
My heat pack, omg you do not understand how much I love heat packs!!!

15. Can you remember being pain free?
No, I've had some level of pain since I was around 6 years old so I don't remember being pain free.

16. Do you know anyone in real life who shares your condition?
My mum she has Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, Chronic Pain Syndrome and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

17. One symptom you would love not to have?
Fatigue, hit me with the pain I can handle the pain but fatigue is the worst symptom I've ever experienced.

18. Nice things said to you and something negative said to you about being sick.
Nice: "you're really strong".
Negative: from my own doctors after proving I have real pain "you're exaggerating it, it's in your head".

19. Is your family supportive or ignorant to your suffering?
100% IGNORANT!!! my mum is supportive but my extended family are extremely ignorant.

20. Describe the feeling after walking up/down stairs.
Dizziness, unbalanced, out of breath, weak & leg pain.

21. Any natural supplements, powders or alternative treatments you would recommend?
Melatonin and Magnesium, Melatonin definitely aids my other sleep medication and Magnesium is great for muscle pain.

22. What is the biggest thing you would like people to know about your illness?
It does exist, it does impact me and your opinions are invalid (unless you also experience it).

- Aimée

Change...

This blog will be changing not in looks but in content. I will stop writing about superficial things like fashion, decor and beauty because I don't feel passionate about it. I won't be posting on a regular basis (although when have I ever), I will be posting when ideas come to me. The content I will be posting will be focused on chronic illness, mental health, social issues, feminism and creativity. I will be deleting all posts that I don't feel had anything to do with the above or that don't have something to do with my life.

- Aimee

Rest In Peace Alan Rickman

My heart is absolutely broken by the news of Alan Rickman's death, the memories his friends and fans are sharing show just how much he is loved. He was a large part of my childhood because of Harry Potter, he was the perfect actor to portray the complex character of Severus Snape. He will be greatly missed by friends, family and fans. May we raise our wands for Alan Rickman/Severus Snape.




Meet My Dog: Indie


What's your dogs name?
Indie.

What breed of dog is she?
Cavoodle (Cavalier King Charles Spaniel x Toy Poodle).

How long have you had her?
A month.

When did you get her?
December 10th 2015.

How old is she?
3 months old.

What are some quirky things about her personality?
For starters she only bites me (no one else), she loves sneaking up on Olivia, she LOVES giving kisses, she likes Olivia's things more than her own, she carries her toys under her instead of in front of her and she LOVES grass.

What does your relationship with your dog mean to you?
Honestly I don't know yet, I know she definitely makes me laugh and helps with my mood.

What are your favourite memories with your dog?
Seeing her and Olivia play, the email I got telling me I could get her earlier than expected and seeing her sleep with her favourite toy.

What are your dog's nicknames?
In, Indie Bindi & Miss Indie.

- Aimée

In 2016 I Will...

I will grow. I will be selfish. I will set realistic goals. I will respect my limits. I will never settle for less. I will let go. I will take care of myself. I will not be a people pleaser. I will try my best to be more positive. I will enjoy life. I will study to get my certificate. I will go pilates. I will make friends. I will keep a journal. I will write more. I will read more. I will get organised. I will seek better treatment. I will go for more medical tests. I will build a health care team. I will drink less soft drink and drink more tea. I will sleep better. I will eat healthier. I will be more creative. I will take more photos. I will take my dogs for more walks. I will hug more. I will love more. I will keep in touch with loved ones. I will do whatever makes me happy. I WILL LOVE MYSELF.